Dot... Dot... Dot...

isang malaking DSAT

2006-10-12T09:10:00.000-07:00

yep!yep!

isang MALAKING DSAT!

just got my first customer satisfaction survey.
and yes i got a 1 (out of 5)!
sad...

but then, life goes on...
as CVG goes on...

i just have to make up for it next week.

but hey! at least it can't get any lower than this
so there's no way for me to go but UP!
let's go positive thinking! :D
hehehe!

BIG 5 HERE I COME!!!

WORDS...words...WoRdS

2006-09-24T19:29:00.000-07:00

words can affect people in more ways that you can ever imagine.
don't you think so?

someone once told me "anong ipinagmamalaki mo?"

to tell you the truth that phrase stuck in my mind for the longest time that i often lost any sense of self-worth. it took me quite a long time to come to terms with it. it took me ages to see my worth not by what people say or perceive about me.

so i was thinking ... i know i have done similar things to others. and i feel guilty about it. but this is just a reminder for me as well as for others.

always remember that we might let go of words thinking that they're just simple words, but they're NOT.

Just a Thought

2006-09-12T01:02:00.000-07:00

have you ever thought that at times ignorance is bliss?...

LSS

2006-05-22T03:18:00.000-07:00

eto ang LSS ko for two days now!
nag exerpt kasi ang St. Louis loves dem Filipinos sa guerero kahapon,
tas eto yung kinakanta namin ni trineth at buche...

haay!!!... hanggang ngayon, ito pa rin naiisip ko!! :D

astig ang song!! :D...
go for RENT!!! :D

I'll Cover You

Live in my house
I'll be your shelter
Just pay me back
with on thousand kisses
Be my lover
and I'll cover you

Open your door
I'll be your tenant
Don't got much baggage to lay at your feet
But sweet kisses I've got to spare
I'll be there and I'll cover you

I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are my love
on life Be my life

Just slip me on
I'll be your blanket
Wherever whatever
I'll be your coat

You'll be my king
and I'll be your castle

No you'll be my queen
And I'll be your moat

I think they meant it
When they said you can't buy love
Now I know you can rent it
A new lease you are my love
on life all my life

I've longed to discover
Something as true as this is

So, with a thousand sweet kis
(if you're cold and you're lonely)

I'll cover you

With a thousand sweet kisses

(you've got one nickel only)

I'll cover you

With a thousand sweet kisses
(When you're worn out and tired)

I'll cover you

With a thousand sweet kisses
(When you're heart has expired)

I'll cover you

Oh, lover
I'll cover you
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
Oh, lover
I'll cover you

Umagang Kay Ganda!

2006-03-17T03:45:00.000-08:00

eto ang LSS ko for the past days...

UMAGANG KAY GANDA

Halika na pumikit limutin ang problema
Hihintayin ang umaga
Magpahinga, panaginip ang ikaliligaya
Darating din ang umaga

Chorus:
Basta't tayo'y magkasama
Laging mayro'ng umagang kay ganda
Pagsikat ng araw
May dalang liwanag
Sa ating pangarap, ooh...
haharapin natin (haharapin natin)

Magpahinga, panaginip ang ikaliligaya
Darating din ang umaga

Chorus:
Basta't tayo'y magkasama
Laging mayro'ng umagang kay ganda
Pagsikat ng araw
May dalang liwanag
Sa ating pangarap, ooh...
haharapin natin (haharapin natin)

Bridge:
Ang sikat ng araw
Na may dalang liwanag

Chorus:
Basta't tayo'y magkasama
Laging mayro'ng umagang kay ganda
Pagsikat ng araw
May dalang liwanag
Sa ating pangarap, ooh...
haharapin natin (haharapin natin)

Buti nalang may friends tayo diba? :D
to all my friends... para sa inyo 'to! :D

STRANDED

2006-03-12T23:01:00.000-08:00

haay! ... stranded ako sa philcoa kasi ang lakas ng ulan. iniisip ko kung bibili ba ako ng payong. malapit na magsummer eh. sayang din P50 ko tas i'm sure mawawala ko din siya. so hinihintay ko na mejo tumila yung ulan. kaya andito ako sa alva nagiinternet. tumabling ako nung nakita ko na 1800+ na ang laman ng email ko. hindi ko nalang binasa baka abutin pa ako ng bukas dito, magtuturo pa naman ako...

haay! (ulit!)... gusto ko na mag BEACH, MAGSNORKLING (oh no! tama ba ang spelling? :>) at MAG BEACHVOLLEYBALL (as if nakakatalon ako ng matino!)... ang layo kasi magbeach dito. gagastos ka pa ng milyones para makaligo sa isang matino na beach resort. haay! kung mayaman lang ako, nasa palawan na sana ako ngayon! pero hindi, kaya makuntento nalang muna ako na magimagine na nagsiswimming ako ngayon!!... ang saya!!...

haay! kakapagod naman ma-stranded!!...

Tulala sa isang tabi

2006-02-22T09:26:00.000-08:00

nagiisip
nagmumuni-muni

ang daming pangyayari
kakayanin pa kaya?

para sa kanya...

cge, pipilitin ko!

Till I met You

2006-02-22T09:20:00.000-08:00

I never dream
'Cause I always thought that dreamin' was for kids
Just a childish thing
And I could swear
Love is just a game that children play
And no more than a game

Till I met you
I never knew what love was
Till I met you
This feelin' seems to grow more everyday
I love you more each day

I believe you
I believe in every word when you say
"I love you all the way."
Now I could swear
Love is not a game that children play
So tell me that you'll stay

Till I met you
I never knew what love was
Till I met you
This feelin' seems to grow more everyday
I love you more each day
Woh...woh

You and I should be together
Can't you see?
Can't you see?

Till I met you
I never knew what I love was
Till I met you
This feelin' seems to grow more everyday
I love you more each day

Till I met you
Till I met you
Till I met you

...SIGAW!...

2006-01-23T08:42:00.000-08:00

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!

sana magawa ko 'to!

sarap siguro nun noh?

sa isang bundok.
sa tuktok.
kaharap ang araw.

sigaw lang ng sigaw.

hanggang dumilim.
hanggang maubusan ng boses.
hanggang mapagod.

isigaw na lahat.

sabay tawa.
sabay iyak.
bahala na parang baliw.

basta makasigaw.

at sana pagkatapos mo isigaw ang lahat,
maging ok ka na ulit.
parang walang nangyari.

sarap siguro nun noh?

sana nga magawa ko ding sumigaw nalang.

...Taas Kilay...

2006-01-23T08:24:00.000-08:00

di napansin.
kusang nangyayari.
di napigilan.

kaliwa lang.
di kaya sa kanan.

bakit kaya?

hmmm...

PAST . . . FORWARD

2005-12-22T07:11:00.000-08:00

i didn't reaize how easy it is to find lyrics of songs in the internet!
haay! nahahalata ang pagka-"untechie" (may term ba na ganito?)

o well... found two favorite songs by my favorite band CRANBERRIES...
missed this songs...
these songs reminds me of certain events in my life and reading the lyrics again stirs a lot of emotions ...
some even describe what i'm feeling these past few weeks...

haay...

EMPTY
Something has left my life
And I don't know where it went to
Somebody caused me strife
And it's not what I was seeking.

Didn't you see me, didn't you hear me
Didn't you see me standing there

Why did you turn out the lights
Did you know that I was sleeping

Say a prayer for me
Help to feel the strength I did
My identity has been taken
Is my heart breaking on me

All my plans fell though my hands
They fell
Though my hands on me
In my obvious it suddenly seems
Empty

NO NEED TO ARGUE
There's no need to argue anymore
I gave all I could
But it left me so sore
And the thing that makes me mad
Is the one thing that I had

I knew, I knew, I'd lose you
You'll always be special to me

And I remember all the
Things we once shared
Watching TV movies on
The living room armchair

But they say it will work out fine
Was it all a waste of time
Cause I knew, I knew, I'd lose you

You'll always be special to me

Will I forget in time
You said I was on your mind
There's no need to argue
No need to argue anymore
There's no need to argue anymore

FOUR WALLS

2005-12-21T11:11:00.000-08:00

i stand in the middle of the four walls i have created...

i want to shut myself in...
tired of wishing and waiting...
sick of the pain...

so i built those four walls...

one i painted with HappY MemorieS
another i painted with Dreams and Ambitions
the third i painted with a pIctuRe of pEaCe and trAnQuiliTy
and the last i painted with love

now i enclose myself in...

hoping it will stand till The End...

ANSWER! ANSWER!

2005-07-25T20:53:00.000-07:00

eto na yung sagot ko sa mga tanong ni ben... mejo seryoso siyang sagot :D... kakaiba kasi ang mga tanong eh... kailangan talaga pagisipan... :D

para kay ian:

1. what kind of life would you have lived if you stayed in CDO after HS?

i guess i would have a so-called "secured life"... i'm sure may work na ako... earning na ... but i guess it would have been a boring life... i wouldn't have experienced all the things i needed to experience to make me grow and mature... i wouldn't have met great and inspiring people... i wouldn't have done things out of the ordinary... but most of all, i wouldn't have know who my Lord really is and how IMPORTANT He is in my life...

2. among the books that you have read in the bible, which one do you least like? why?

cguro 1 chronicles... kasi parang naulit lang nya ang mga nangyari sa 1 n 2 kings ... puro list lang ng names at events... so mejo na bore ako dun kaya nga 1 chronicles lang nabasa ko :D... di na umabot sa 2 chronicles :D...

3. how will you play volleyball with a child who is physically-handicapped (amputated arms)?

hmmm... pagamputated yung buong arms, i guess mag soccer nalang kami :D... if mejo may natira pa, yun yung i work out namin para magkaroon ng enough strength na makatira ng bola... tapos itrain ko nalang cya maging libero para di na kailangan mag serve at mag spike :D... hehehe :D...

4. if Sir Alex offers you the role of Antonio in "St. Louis...", would you take it? why/why not?

TAKE IT!!! :D... hahaha!... kaso magiging bisaya yata si antonio... di na cya ilokano!!... hahaha!! :D... why?... kasi feeling ko kaya ko yung mga dapat gawin sa kay antonio :D... (hmmm... pero magbahag?... hmm...)

5. if you were a brownie, what flavor are you (chocolate w/nuts, butterscotch, capuccino, or chocomarble)? why?

i guess i would have to be capuccino... aside from the fact that it's my favorite brownie at mejo kakulay kami, kakaiba kasi ang lasa ng capuccino... distinct... may sariling timpla... mixture of tastes... di lang puro tamis... may pait din :D...

QUARTER OF A CENTURY

2005-07-19T21:28:00.000-07:00

I just celebrated my 25th birthday last friday. Well... yes, im 25 years old... and I'm PROUD of it! :D
Although it was a different story 3 months ago... i would have denied my age if you asked me then.
But the Lord has given me the BEST birthday gift!... He has changed me dramatically that even I couldn't imagine that indeed i'm really changed :D... I'm not saying though that i'm completely changed but well, HE is working it out slowly and surely...

Gusto ko talaga ikwento ang mga nangyari kaso di talaga kakasya dito sa blog... kung nagkita nalang tayo in person... :D

sa lahat na nagpray para sa akin SALAMAT talaga! :D... Sa lahat ng friends na anjan palagi... SOBRANG SALAMAT din!... wag kayo mag-alala... pinagpray ko din kayo... so let's all wait patiently for the LORD! ... :D....

btw, nood kayo ng St. Louis Loves Dem Filipinos ha?!... andun kami ni ben!... :D... bagong career na ito!... blessing galing kay Lord...

I can't wait to for my next birthday!... :D

HOY!

2005-06-15T23:40:00.000-07:00

hoy!

bakit kayo ganyan?!...
i feel tired of this kind of situation!
lagi nalang ako inaapakan...
wala na ba talaga akong silbi?...

ganyan na ba talaga tingin nyo sakin?...
BASURA?...

kung kayo kaya nasa kalagayan ko?...
may magagawa pa ba kayo kung talagang kusa ka nang iniwan?...
kung baga NILAGAS?!!...

kung talagang wala na akong silbi...
bigyan mo naman ako ng konting respeto...

PAKIWALIS NAMAN AKO NG MAAYOS AT ITAPON SA BASURAHAN!

love,
nalagas na balahibo ni summer

hahaha!! :D... para sa hndi nakakilala kay summer, siya ang aming half breed na doggie... half dog-half pig :D...
hope nagenjoy kayo! :D

Phone Denied

2005-06-06T22:54:00.000-07:00

may gas!

sira na naman ang aking telepono!!... kakapaayos ko lang noong april... but no, sira na naman siya...
sira na naman ang screen at earpiece at ngayon, pati ang battery... grabe na ito!!... la na nga ako marinig, la pa nababasa!!... hay naku!... ano ba naman itong buhay na ito?!!...

pano na ang magiging business ko?!... paano na ang GSTS?!...

o well... Lord ikaw na bahala!!... mayaman ka naman eh :D...

i guess i will just have to wait patiently...

last 15 minutes

2005-05-31T23:33:00.000-07:00

2:35 pm

hinihintay ko nalang ang last 15 minutes para masulit ang bayad ko na 30 mins dito sa internet shop sa sc... sayang kasi yung money na pambayad ng 30 minutes tapos di mo masulit diba?...

for dat magpaka schizo na naman ako =)... bwahaha! :D

ano kaya isusulat ko ngayon?... tungkol kaya sa mga bagong raket or tungkol sa mga past experiences?... hmmm... hmmm....

2:45pm

ang bilis naman ng oras!... la akong nasulat sa 10 minutes!!... sasabihin niyo na naman na walang kwenta itong pinost ko!... hmph!!!... yang js na yan!!... ingat ka sa pagtulog mo mamayang gabi!!!... :D...

o well, dito nalang ako... la pa rin kwenta post ko... pero at least nakapagpost dba?! :D... abangan nalang ang mga future posts ko!!... okidoks?! :D.... cu pips! :D....

From GAGANG

2005-05-31T22:35:00.000-07:00

haller folks!! :D... how's is u?...

you, you, you..both of u 3... go to my ofis tomorow ryt now!!!

hay naku!... mga nag eenglish englishan kasi... pede naman itagalog...

sana matuwa kayo dito :D

ENGLISH 101
So the host breaks open the wine and the ice aswell while politely calling the guests in:"C'mon let's join us."
"Want something drinks? or care some snacks?"Meron dyang barber-Q""O, have you eaten yourself na?"

He receives news of a gatecrasher in their midst&graciously answers:
"Hey, it's okay. like what they say, the more themanyer."
When trouble arises or "if worse comes to shove.":
"Well, it's not my problem anymore, it's yourproblem anymore."
"We'll burn the bridge when you there get there."
"Let's give him the benefit of the daw."

Party host turned wannabe game show host:"Ryan, are you game ka na ba?"
"Ok folks, let's call it tonight."

And sing-song favorites from our childhood:
"One of these days is not like the other."

How about cliches that don't just click:
"Sige pare, akong bahala, the sky's the langit."
"You can't have your cake and bake it too.""Right there and right then."
"Take things first at a time."
"It's a blessing in the sky."
"Time is of the element."
"Been there, been that."

You can say that again:
"What are friends are for."
"You can never can tell."
"So far, so good, so far."

Sabi-sabi lang yan:
"First and for all."
"It's been always been that way."
"Whatever you can say so."
"I'm told you for the last time."

Idiotic idioms from idiomatic idiots badlyexpressed:
"Are you joking my leg"
"It's on a base-to-base casis"
"It's as brand as new."
"Can't you just cut me some slacks."

Double meanings finally get a new meaning:
"O wag ka munang umalis ka na."
"Stay for a while, ituring mong bahay mo ba 'to."
"O ingat ha, baka madapa ka sana."

And a few lines that picked up from a D.O.M artdirector :
"Hi girls, i'm boys."
"So...what's a beautiful girl like you."
"Please join us, have a sit down."
"You like o, boneless grapes na walang buto."
"Well well well, look do we have here."
"Let's give them a big hand of applause."

Back to the BLOG WORLD

2005-05-23T02:08:00.000-07:00

haay!... at nakapagblog din ulit...

haller folks! :D... it's been like eternity since I last updated my blog...

ang dami na nabago sa mga blog ng mga utaw, but no!!!... yung blog ko, eto pa rin... kulay green... ganun pa rin...
haay!... nakakalungkot naman...
dati iniisip ko na di naman kailangan maganda at hi-tech ang blog... ang importante, ang nilalaman...
well... la pa rin akong maibubugang laman ng aking blog... hahaaay!!!... o well, that's life... you can't have it all right?
may blog ba na puro salita nalang?... yung pakikinggan mo yung blog ng iba?... i'm sure 'da best' yung blog kio kung ganun! :D
pero wala nga eh!!!... haay! buhay! (schizo?!!... nagsasalita magisa?!!) ... ganyan siguro pag matagal ka na di nakapag blog...

ang dami2x ko kwento sa inyo!!!... kaso ang boring naman kung isulat ko lahat diba?... yung iba, panis na yata na kwento...
yung iba, sariwang-sariwa kaso nakakatamad magsulat!... tapos i'm sure di niyo din babasahin!!!... hmph!!!...

pero sige, isusulat ko din yun isa-isa... abangan nyo nalang!! :D... ok?...OK?!!... ba't di kayo sumasagot?!!... bakit?!... BAKIT?!!!

siya na!... dito na muna... sa lahat na naging concern sa aking blog na si "dot...dot...dot..." salamat sa inyo!... di ko kayo bibiguin sa aking mga kwento... at para dun sa nagwiwish na mamatay nalang ito blog na ito... DI KO KAYO TATANTANAN!!!

Amazing Grace

2005-03-09T00:05:00.000-08:00

"Amazing Grace how sweet the sound
that saved a wretch like me
I once was lost but now am found
was blind but now I see"

o what joy fills my heart
as i realize how special i am

not because of how others see me
nor how i view myself
but because of how my Lord loves the whole of me

Yes! Jesus loves me... and i'm sure He loves you too!!!... :D

Losing One's Self

2005-02-16T22:07:00.000-08:00

who am i?

am i a figment of an imagination of my own making

or a figment of that of others?

sometimes i am at a daze...

who am i?

i feel boxed by my own expectations

and mostly by the expectations of others

oftentimes i want to break out!

but i can't...

who am i?

i guess i don't know who i really am

i am lost.

Gugamang Gi-atay

2005-02-13T21:41:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day is here again... ang bilis naman ng panahon!...

bakit nga pala natin sine-celebrate ang valentine's day?...
may st. valentine ba?... sino ba siya?...
ano ba ang nagawa niya sa buhay at bakit may special day talaga siya?
bakit?... bakit?... BAKEEEEETTTTT???!!!!...

haay naku!... ewan ko ba sa mga taong excited dumating ang Feb. 14...

basta ako kyut!...

feeling (and looking) fat this february

2005-02-02T16:18:00.000-08:00

it's the start of february and you can't help but feel the strong pulsating atmosphere of that thing they call "love"... isn't these lines familiar?... "all we need is love"... "love is a many splendor thing"... "love makes the world go round"... love! love! love!... "p*tang inang pag-ibig yan!" <-- from "Ligaya ang Itawag mo sa akin"

bitter?! :o)... hahaha!... maybe? maybe not?... sometimes you need to be satisfied and be contented with what you have or in some cases, what you don't have... well in my case though, I'M NOT SATISFIED!!!... sino b naman ang ma satisfy kung ang makikita mo araw araw ay ang napakalaking TIYAN na nakaharap sa 'yo!!... haaay naku! sorry for that burst of unyielding emotions... but yes after a very long long stage of denial, i would finally admit that i am (lunok!) FAT!... yes ladies and gentlemen... im feeling and looking fat this february...

so what am i going to do about it?!... well for one, i could schedule jogging days... then i can have work out days ... then more sports-oriented days (like playing badminton and volleyball)... but for some reason or another there seems to be a problem for every solution that comes to my mind... "lang time mag jog"... "lang pera pang work out at badminton"... "lang venue mag volleyball"... see?... i know these are lame excuses but haven't you realized that sometimes you have a thousand and one excuses if you really don't want to do something or you are just too LAZY (ahem!) to do it?... tama nga yung "WHEN THERE'S A wILL THERE's A WAY"... pero if there's no will, there's no windmill! (indm nalang matira!)...

so here i am still moping around letting my own realization settle in my head (and heart! sniff! sniff!)...

I must strengthen my resolve to do everything in my power (both body & mind) to overcome this state of stagnation and really do something about my current situation... I must jog! ... I must work out!... I must be active!... I must! ... I must!... I MUST!...

aaaaaaarrrggghh!!!... I must do all of those in MARCH! :o)...hahaha!

trivia: did you know that february is the coldest month of our country?

with that, i think i'll stay fat this february!... who knows someone out there needs an extra pound of fat for extra heat!! :o)

GUESS WHO?

2005-01-18T20:20:00.000-08:00

para maiba at maging interactive tayo... may palaro ako ... hehehe :)

magsusulat ako ng mga special characteristics, mga ginawang funny, unforgettable lines at kung anu-ano pa... tapos i-guess nyo kung sino... diba masaya?! :)... ilan kaya mahulaan ninyo?... eto na...

1. scene: R&R ng mga upcymians sa ilocos...
habang nagpakabasa kami lahat at nagpapadala sa mga alon... itong taong 'to ay nasa isang tabi at nagbibilang yata ng mga bato sa shore... sino siya?
( A. si joseph roy B. si autistic alfred C. si Melvin Manuel)

2. scene: Bohol Caravan no. 1
"Careful, careful guys!"... after 2 seconds... "aaaahh..." blag! (with matching sound ng naduas)
(A. si Nur Malonzo B. si Derf Sibal C. Mac Leroy)

3. situation: text war with ian
"... i don't even want it raced ... " (raced?!... karera ba ito?!)
(A. Hanniyah B. JS C. Suzzane)

4. sino itong tao na pagnakahiga at pinalo mo sa pwet nagkakaroon ng mala"tsunami" na flow of fats?
(A. Ian Gwapo (lang kokontra!) B. Janice Saligao (aka JS) C. Melvin Manuel)

5. sino itong upcymian ang nag sadsadan(lungkot-lungkotan) kasi di siya nakapagturo sa una niyang caravan?...
(A. Amazing Grace B. Melvin Manuel C. Dimplets)

6. scene: sa parking area sa breakwater sa may bay walk..
"... uy laki ng moon o!!..." (ang catch, malaking light post ang tinuro niya!... laki nga!... damidami pa nila!!!)
(A. Ketikets B. Amazing Grace C. Hanniyah)

7. sino itong dating upcymian na kung maghilik singlakas ng engine ng superferry!!!...(literally!)
(A. Nur Malonzo B. Mac Leroy C. Benjaja Padero)

8. sino ang gumagawa nito dati?... "... the Lord..." (with matching kindat kindat!... peace!)
(A. Pastor Ray B. Ate Vi C. PK)

9. sinu-sino ang unang nakatanggap ng caravan icon ng upcym?...
(A. Josh & Ian B. Yana and Milky C. Milky and Suzanne)

10. scene: women's volleyball game noong Bohol Caravan no.2...
"aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!" (with matching ready arm position... habang nakatingala at tinitingnan ang bola... ang catch di niya natamaan ang bola!... )
(A. Amazing Grace B. Milky Francis C. Leslie Boy)

11. Sino ang two-time back to back caravan icon ng upcym?
(A. Suzanne B. Yana C. Milky Francis)

12. kaninong famous line ito: "vinjans is owrsh!" (vengance is ours!)
(A. Derf Sibal B. PK C. Melvin Manuel)

13. sino nagsabi nito?... "...grabe na talaga ang Chancellor Choir..."
(A. Autistic Alfred B. Amazing Grace C. Hanniyah)

14. sino nagsabi nito? ... " uy napanood mo ba yung sa morning star... yung binibining kabae... ang funny ng sagot ni Beverly Hills dun..." (Actually napanood ko...at si Beverly Salviejo yun... diba lugar ang Beverly Hills?)
(A. Suzanne B. JS C. Andres)

15. Fill in the blank...
scene: sa isang elevator sa Megamall...
__________: "What floor are we?"
Ian: Unsay what floor are we?!... hahaha!...
Pipol: hahah!!
__________ : "di pa nga ako tapos eh... What floor are we going down?"
(ang catch... paakyat kami sa 3rd floor... pero in fairness tama lang pala kasi pagtrinanslate sa bisaya... "unsay floor ta manganaog?")
(A. Hanniyah B. Kitets C. Autistic Alfred)

Dito na muna guys... isipin ko pa yung iba... hehehe... abangan ang Part 2!

Tama ba ang mga sagot ninyo? ... Tingnan sa comment ang mga sagot!... :)

KALYO

2005-01-09T16:56:00.000-08:00

sa takbo ng buhay, hindi maiwasan masaktan.
sakit ng mga sugat dulot ng mga tao o kapaligiran,
dulot ng mga pangyayaring di mo inaasahan
o kaya mga pangyayaring di mo iniwasan.

sa simula, ang hapdi ng mga sugat.
bawat galaw kumikirot.
bakas na bakas sa mukha ang sakit,
kitang-kita sa mga kilos ang pagod,
damang-dama ang bigat ng pasanin.

sa katagalan, dahil sa paulit-ulit na pagkasugat,
di maiwasang magbago.
dahil pinipilit maibsan ang sakit,
nagiging manhid.
nagkakakalyo.

hanggang dumating sa punto,
sa kapal ng kalyo,
di na nakakaramdam
masaktan man o makasakit ng iba.

pano ba tanggalin ang mga kalyong 'to?

kayo?... alam nyo?

2005-01-05T17:43:00.000-08:00

in the depths of my whole being
shouts of rage arise

rage against things
rage against people
rage against events
but the loudest among them
rage against my own self

speak up! stand up! fight!

but the shouts grow louder
seeping out
threatening to break free
the facade slowly crumbling

i ask for silence
cool waters of endless tranquility
let the mask be washed away
leave me naked but free

be still.

know.

"I AM".

Gray Stone

2005-01-04T01:34:00.000-08:00

i stood there
silent
head bowed
unmoving

feeling the cold breeze on my face

memories came
wave after wave
vivid memories

again reality struck me hard
indeed he is gone

i stood there
trying to contain what i'm feeling
but the tides were too strong

tears started flowing from my eyes

i stood there
looking at the gray stone

one day we will meet again in heaven
but for now, i will just let the tears flow

My Sister's Daughter

2005-01-04T01:14:00.000-08:00

The week that WAS

2004-12-23T14:30:00.000-08:00

it's been a long time since I have updated my blog... so here is a "little" summary of the week that has passed... Mejo Mahaba po! Ü

December 15 (Wednesday) - Finally, I was able to go to UCCP Cosmopolitan with the UPCYM. After evading it for the past few visit, i was able to find the courage to go there and see if HEhas anything to reveal for me... and indeed HE has!!!... sobrang nakakakaba yung mga revelations!... at sobrang nakakatakot ang mga responsibilities involved!... hay naku... tama talaga ang sabi ni Pastor Chris nung pinagpray nya ako... "you can't ran away from it for the rest of your life!"... yeah i know ... i must not be like JONAH! (or Joshua ba yun?!... hahaha! ... hi js!Ü)

December 16 (Thursday) - UPCYM was incharge for the sambang umaga. We were able to do it quite well! (for the first time?Ü)... Thanks to the pipol who participated! =) -> Salamat sa mga nag "We are the Reason" sina suzanne (ayan tama na spelling ha?!), andres (who also did a solo in the offertory!), edmon, doctora, bobbie, jason, earla, kitchie, acielle and dimpsÜ!... maski mababaliw ang mga deaf na titingin sa mga sign language natin, ok pa rin kasi for the Lord naman diba?! Ü... salamat din k ben na nagliturgist at kumanta ng introit! (wid me and anders... angels we have heard on high..Ü.)... ano na ba 'to? thank u speech sa FAMAS?!! hahah!Ü... hemingweys, pero the highlight for me was when I did my first "message"... my gas! sobrang kakaiba ang feeling... masaya!... sobrang at peace yung feeling ko!!... (bakit kaya? ... hmmm... oh no!!!)

In the afternoon, we went to the Molave Youth Homes (na sabi ni suzanne sa letter na Molave Detention Center -- tama ba suzanne?Ü)... Sobrang kakaiba at katakot ang feeling... pero nung nagstart na ang action songs... haay! at peace na ulit! =)... Salamat ulit sa mga tumulong (di ko na imention kasi dami eh! basta alama nyo na kung sino2x kayo Ü)...

December 17 (Friday) - My sister just gave birth to her baby girl in a hospital somewhere in MuntinlupaÜ... Mommy yo and I had an adventure trip going there... including mommy yo's 15 million years in SM Makati's CR while I was left outside the Men's Clothes Department... kainis kasi ang tagal nya tapos andun ako nakatingin sa mga magagandang damit na di ko naman mabili! =(... haaay! I was drooling over those clothes!!!... Pero the trip was worth it!... ang kyut ng pamangkin ko na si BABY RAINA (ra-yee-na)!!... finally, parang mana na sa amin yung ilongÜ...!

December 18 (Saturday) - I went with the council and CYFers to the East Avenue Medical Center to give out gifts to children in the hospital... I came in late kaya humabol nalang ako dun with kitty... nakakaawa yung mga kids dun!... lalo na yung first 2 kids na nakita namin ni kitty... yung isa may hydrocephalus yata...sobrang nagbloat na ang kanyang head!... literally parang alien... yung isa naman, na damage yung brain dahil na bagok yung ulo... We prayed for them and gave them oranges and apples... nakakaawa pero we know that God is still in control in their lives... i was priveleged to pray for the kid na nabagok yung head... sa sobrang kaba kasi first time ko nagawa, english tuloy yung prayer ko!... pero I know somehow the Lord is already working in the lives of those families... We just have to pray for them more...

December 19 (Sunday) - nag liturgist ako... sarap magsalita sa bagong sound system!Ü... feeling mo maganda boses mo!Ü... Met rania and viejay!... we ate at khas and went to bobbie's place after to have coffee and played acquire!!Ü... Acielle broke my record as the lowest score ever sa acquire!... hehehe... Then we watched LOTR Two Towers ... tapos ewan ko ba pano nagsimula basta bigla nalang dumating ang usapan sa TROJAN ELEPHANT... ewan ko ba kay lao! Ü... hahaha!Ü

December 20 (Monday) - went to Montalban to wash clothes!Ü... salamat k ben at mejo may damit na naman ako!!... whee!Ü... tapos tambay sa kanila forever!... nood ng movies, kain at bantay kay sean!... =)

December 21 (Tuesday) - Uneventful!... hahaha! =)

December 22 (Wednesday) - wasn't able to go to Cosmo... we went to SM to meet JS... since na stranded siya sa MRT station... so while window shopping with ben, I saw a nice pair of shoes... impulsively, i bought it with the money mommy yo and mac b gave me for Christmas... Haaay! may new shoes ako, la naman bago damit! =(... well, that's life!... you can't have everything... had dinner at Pizza Hut... sobrang mahal pero ok na rin!Ü... Went back to Montalban late last night to play acquire and watch movies (again!)... We played 3 times and I lost twice!... what a record!... LOSER talaga ako kagabi!Ü... tapos na break ni ben ang all time high score ko!... May gas!... nabreak na nga ni acielle yung lowest, nabreak pa ni ben ang highest!... LOST na talaga ako sa records! ... haay!... saya ng Home on the Range at Ella Enchanted!... Ü

At ngayon...andito pa rin ako... nagtatype... tambay!... kain!... oh no! si summer di pa kumakain ngayong araw!!... well...dito nalang muna guys and gels! Ü... kain ulit ako eh!... hehehe!... Ü

Advance Merry Christmas sa inyong Lahat!!! Ü

Win some Lose some

2004-12-13T07:45:00.000-08:00

haller folks!... long time no see but now sinaw!! :)...

hahaha! kabisaya ba kayo uy!...

hemingways, ganyan talaga ang buhay... minsan masaya , minsan malungkot... kadalasan lang pera, pero may nagpapautang ng madalas (tnx ben n js!)... well... you win some, you lose some...

for the past 2 weeks i played for ie club on their volleybagan tournament. actually kami ni ben... last friday morning, we played against CURSOR in the men's division... we lost :(... but during the afternoon we played high level volleyball against CIEM in the mixed division... and we won! :)... we reached the finals for the mixed division while we dropped for 3rd place in the men's division... just this morning we played against MSS for the fight for 3rd match in the men's division... we won!... but we lost against ERG in the mixed division... so we ended up 2nd ...

See?... we win some,we lose some...

but hey!... that's the reality of life!... you can't win them all... pero at least you won't lose them all either... it's just a matter of perspective... how you view life in general... But whether you win or lose, the most important thing is YOU GAVE YOUR BEST!... :)

(salamat nga pala k ket, js, suzanne at bobbie sa pagsupport sa amin sa aming short volleyball career! pagpalain nawa kayo ng ating panginoon!) :)

Joshua Who?!!!

2004-12-07T05:40:00.000-08:00

While watching an old trailer of ANACONDAS...

ian: la naman talaga ganyang snake ah..
suzanne: meron!
ian: oo nga, pero hindi ganyan kabilis gumalaw... stranglers kasi sila...
mac b: oo, nashishrink nila into 1/3 the size ng kakainin nila.
leighton: meron nga akong nakita sa internet na taong kinain buo...
ian: nakita ko din yun... tapos pinatay nila yung snake tapos binuksan yung tiyan... tapos nandun yung tao... buo pa ang katawan...
suzanne: buhay pa?
(haller?!!!... )

pinagtawanan ng lahat si suzanne at ang kanyang napakatalino na tanong... But no!!! ayaw patalo ni JS

js: hahaha!! parang si Joshua and the giant shark or whale ba yun?!...
(mas haller!!!...si jonah po yun!... at hindi po giant shark yun!!!ü)

What's LOVE got to do with it?

2004-12-07T05:17:00.000-08:00

When I see you
My world stands still
Time stops
Everything else fades
Only you remain

When you smile
My world brightens
Beauty radiates
Everything looks exquisite
But nothing compares to you

I walk towards you
My heart beats faster
It pounds harder
It seems like eternity

Then our eyes meet
My soul melts
And in the stillness of that moment
My lips touch your cheek

My week is complete… I smile as I walk away :)

What's LOVE got to do with it?... EVERYTHING! :)

Verses! Verses!

2004-12-04T20:33:00.000-08:00

Here are some verses that inspired me... I hope they will inspire you too! :)

"The Lord's unfailing love and mercy still continue.

Fresh as the morning, as sure as the sunrise.

The Lord is all I have, and so in Him I put my hope"

Lamentations 3: 22-23

"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength.

They shall mount up their wings like eagles,

they shall run and not grow weary,

they shall walk and not faint"

Isaiah 40:31

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,

who have been called according to his purpose"

Romans 8:28

"... He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Chirst Jesus"

Philippians 1:6

What it Takes

2004-12-03T01:16:00.000-08:00

it takes a storm to hit our country to make us realize how unprepared we really are
it takes a storm in our lives to make us realize how weak we really are

it takes a strom to hit our country to make us realize how powerful nature can be
it takes a storm in our lives to make us realize how powerful God will always be

it takes a storm to hit our country to make us realize the consequences of our greed
it takes a storm in our lives to make us realize the consequences of our disobedience

it takes a storm to hit our country to make us realize that indeed united we will stand
it takes a storm in our lives to make us realize that in kneeling down we will rise up

it took a storm to hit our country to make my family have a wondeful, candlelit dinner together!
it took a storm in my life to make me feel how special it is to be a child of God! :)

Of Pizza And Pictorials

2004-11-30T15:40:00.000-08:00

this is a long overdue post ... hehehe... :)

Going home after such a depressing morning at school last monday... i was greeted by my then new "roomates" for the day. Buti nalang di pa cla umaalis... at least di ko pa naisip ang aking mga problema...

So what started as lunch and acquire activity, ended up with us eating 18" yellow cab pizza and photo op at home :)

here are some of the pics... :)

(kala nyo snap shot?... haller! 10 seconds kaming naka-pose nyan noh!!) ... :)

(wacky-wackihan!) :)

(smooth criminal or criminal lang?!) ... hahaha! :)

for more pics, check nyo nalang sa flickr ni ben or ket :)

Great Depression ... Greater Love

2004-11-30T14:50:00.000-08:00

Nakakahiyang isipin na di ko kinaya.
Nakakahiyang isipin na di ako makagraduate this sem
pero mas nakakahiyang isipin na nawalan ako ng tiwala sa kakayahan ni Lord na tulungan ako sa lahat ng aspeto ng buhay ko....

I failed the test that the Lord gave me... I failed to surrender! :(

Yes, pipol of the world, I wouldn't be graduating this semester. I didn't push thru with my practicum. I was discouraged. I let fear overpower me. I was so afraid and intimidated that I failed to remember that God is with me every step of the way. And no one is to be blamed but ME...

It's been a week now since I have decided that I'm dropping my practicum. And it's been a week that I am pretending everything is ok with me. Ang hirap pala mag pretend. My heart was so heavy for the past week. I was so guilty of my actions- especially the lack of trust for the Lord's capabilities. The song "could you be messiah" really reflected what I felt. Could God ever forgive me?... Could He still be my messiah even if I failed Him?...

But the Lord is really good. He blessed me with a very loving and understanding mother...

When I told mami yo about my decision of dropping my practicum, I expected that she would get angry and would want to intervene (knowing momiyo). I expected to defend my decision. I was already formulating the things that I was to say to her. But what she said to me caught me off-guard and broke through my defenses…

she said “sige lang. I-drop nalang na. Ok ra. Suportahan gihapon tika. Ga-expect unta ko makakita ug UP graduation pero mas importante na makagraduate ka. Kung dili karong year, eh di next year. Basta ang importante nga makagraduate ka k mao ra na among pamana sa imo namo sa imong papa. And always remember na I love you ha?” .

I’m not sure if you all can understand what she said, but the essence of it is that she will always love me no matter what!… that carried me through out the week…

That is why I already have the courage to broadcast this to the whole wide world. I might not graduate this semester but I have learned a lot from this experience. First, always trust God. Surrender everything to Him. Second, He showed that no matter how undeserving I might be, He will always love me. And He showed me that through my mother.

Yes! The Lord will always be my messiah!

Deep Deep DOWN

2004-11-24T01:33:00.000-08:00

This song has been so real to me in these past few days... each and every stanza has described what i'm feeling right now...

"Lord, could you be my Messiah please be Messiah to me"

Could You Be Messiah
by Gary Valenciano

Could You be healer
To a heart that's been wounded
In a battle that's never cease

Could You be teacher
To a mind of confusion
Tell me what does this all mean

Are You deliverer
Of an imprisoned feeling in chains
Can You set my spirit free
And just one more question
Allow me this question
Could You be Messiah to me
Could You be Messiah to me

Could You be father
To a soul that's been abandoned
By a world too busy to hear

Could You be friend
To a helpless survivor
Can You take away my fears

I heard them all sharing
This newfound conviction in them
Are You all that they make You to be
And just one more question
Allow me this question
Could You be Messiah to me
Please be Messiah to me

Now i've been looking for someone like You
And i'm so tired, i'm tired
I've read every book and i've sang every song
My mind maybe right but my heart feels so wrong
Tell me how much further can my life go along
Which way do the roads lead where do I belong...

Are You forgiver
Of my most unknown secrets
Provider of all that I need

Could You be brother
The one who knows better
Would You now stand in the lead

When all this is over all the thunder and lightning
In the daylight just what will I see
The answers to my questions to all of my questions
Could You be Messiah to me
Could You be Messiah to me
Could You be Messiah

Please be Messiah to me...

TOP 5

2004-11-23T05:31:00.000-08:00

here's my top 5 text messages... what's yours? :)

5. "if i tel u i luv u, u shldnt evn hv 2 wndr y, or how, or snce wen, or hw long, bcz i wldnt hv a single answr except 2 tel u i luv u agen"

4. "dey say lovng u s my bgst mstake bt how can it b so wrong f it feels so ryt?... f evr i made a mstake its not dat i luv u, its thnkng dat someday ul luv me too"

3. "in luv, nvr put urself n a situation wer ur not sure of wer u stand n a person's lyf... nvr assume, nvr xpct, so dat f dey drop u, u have enuf strength 2 move on"

2. "Msakit mging kaibigan ng taong mhal mo... d mo alm kng san ka lulugar, d ka dapt umasa, o d kaya mainis sa knya... bkt? anong karapatan mo?... 'KAIBIGAN' k lng d b?"

1. "Nyt yan!" (hahaha!!) :)

haaay!... buhay talaga!! :)

Better Days

2004-11-21T19:20:00.000-08:00

Two days from now it will be my grandmother's birthday. She would have turned 81.

Last year, we had a nice simple celebration for her at blue bacon and green eggs. The food was expensive but we wanted to have an extra special celebration for her. Little did we know then that it would be our last celebration for her. Three months later, she passed away...

I could still remember how I felt when my mother called me and asked me to go home because "naay hahitabo sa imong lola" (something happened to your lola). The panic. The fear. The feeling of helplessness.

I could still remember the hospital days when we would wait outside the ICU. Unsure of whether she would recover or not.

And when the Lord finally took her away from us, I could still remember the shock and the pain of losing someone close to you. someone you love.

I couldn't imagine that it was already 9 months ago. It seemed like it all happened yesterday. I miss my lola... I miss her so much...

Fear Factor

2004-11-19T04:35:00.000-08:00

Have you ever seen episodes of fear factor in TV?... well since AXN is one of the few channels that can be seen in our "Super hi-tech, surround sound TV" (how I wish!!!) i came to enjoy watching people do weird stuff just to "conquer" their fear and of course not to mention the $50,000 cash prize for the winner. I often say to myself I could all do the stunts as long as it doesn't involve the eating of gross things that ranges from live insects, maggot shake, coagulated blood, etc... alam nyo naman ako sa food...

But lately I have been facing a lot of fears. And I must say these fears are harder to face and harder to conquer. One of which is my practicum adviser aka our college secretary Mr. Sabado. May gas!... Just the thought of facing him again and again for an entire semester gives me the creeps!!!... I have never felt so intimidated in my whole life!!... But that is just the beginning...

What I fear most these days is that I wouldn't be able to graduate. The fact that I am losing (at a very fast rate) my confidence in doing my practicum plus the intimidation factor makes me wanna give up my practicum forever!!...

But that means not facing up to my fears... It is as if I don't have a God who will help me... It is as if I'm doing it on my own...

But I am reminded that "I can do all things thru Christ who strengthens me" and "If God is for us, who can be against us"...

I'm not saying that I do not fear anymore because up until this very moment I still fear my practicum... but al least it is quite manageable... Basta gagraduate ako!!!... kung di man ngayon eh di next sem... :)

SWAT

2004-11-15T06:39:00.000-08:00

I never thought that UPCYMians can be on time for an activity... So more than an hour early going to SWAT is certainly SHOCKING :D

Laughter is the best medicine!

2004-11-15T01:38:00.000-08:00

haller folks!

may gas abelgas!... ang hirap pala nitong blog na ito. narealize ko tuloy na lousy talaga ako sa mga hi-tech stuff. pero cge lang ... sabi nga ni Jollibee....."kaya mo yan kid" :D...

o well... so here i am writing my first entry sa blog. ano ba dapat isulat dito?... hmmm... hmmm... kainis kasi mga tao na nagbblog grabe kung magsulat. na pressure tuloy ako!!!...

speaking of pressure... alam nyo ba na ang P=nRVT? (tama ba?!! :D)... hahah... cge, dito nalang muna kasi la na talaga ako masulat!!... kita kits folks! :D

btw, kaya yan yung title ng post ko kasi dapat yan yung name ng blog ko...then i realized na mas appropriate yung bago nya name... hehehe3 :D